Friday, May 10, 2013

{Comfort}: 5 Minute Friday


I'm sort of ashamed to admit that the first thing that comes to mind when I first read this word is a big steaming bowl of Macaroni and Cheese...

or Loaded Baked Potato Chowder...

or some other gooey, cheesy, goodness.

I think it's because the warmth is comforting and it fills you up with that warmth; makes you feel better quickly, even if just for a short while.

And I hate that it took me most of my 37 years to realize that macaroni and cheese shouldn't be the thing providing that fill-me-from-the-inside warmth and comfort.

It's not like I didn't know that He should be the one filling me and providing those things.

I knew.

It just took a while to make it from my head-thought to my heart-thought.

And I must wonder too, when did this happen?

I wasn't always this way.
Sure, I loved cheesy anything as a child, but I never used it as a means of escape.

Maybe college?  That certainly was a time when I had lots to run and hide from...mainly myself and my self-image.

Many of you know I have struggled with my weight as an adult.  It took me years to realize that until I changed the inside of me, any outside changes would be temporary.

And I'm still working on it.

But everyday, I get a little closer to having the one true comfort with me.
To being able to reach for that when the going gets tough.
That thought, in itself, is comforting.

Linking up with Lisa Jo...

1 comment:

  1. *hug* change is never easy, and hardest when it is our core self that we are trying to change. May you find comfort in that you have recognized a piece of yourself and may you continue to be brave in your commitment to change what you can to make yourself happier with who you are.