I ask myself this almost daily.
And I must not be officially off my rocker yet, because I don't answer back J
But I really am wondering what I was thinking when I committed to writing every day for 31 days in October. It's a feat I have yet to accomplish in this blog's existence - almost 4 years.
I used to speak the excuse, "I just don't have the time to write like I want to."
It wasn't necessarily an invalid excuse - not 100% accurate or 100% inaccurate.
The hardest part of writing isn't actually lack of time or lack of material.
It's actually that I'm OVERWHELMED with writing topics.
Things I want to say, but don't know where to start with them or HOW to say them.
When it comes to what I think, there's always a "when" attached. Because when am I NOT thinking? I have a hard time shutting off my mind in order to rest, relax, go to sleep even.
One of the things I hope to accomplish with this 31 Days of writing is the ability to just transfer thoughts and feelings to words on a screen. To lay them down without second guessing and over-editing.
I feel that it's part of being transparent, dropping the masks we all use to "hide" parts of ourselves from others.
Being transparent is hard. It takes courage - bravery - lots of effort.
Sometimes I think it might even be {crazy}.
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